College Years

Difficult times with some aberrant and immature behavior.

In protozology class I could not seem to understand the differences in appearance of the organizsms. Each lab session microscopes woud be set out with slides of the microorganisms swimming in water. I began to wondr if anyone could see these differences and so one day I went to the lab early and moved the label with the name of the protozoan over 1 or 2 microscopes wondering if anyone could tell the diffenece. In class I called one of the intructors over to a microscope to tell me what were the characteristics of the animal under the scope. The label of course was wrong. He looked down for a moment, looked up, and said, now move the labels back where they belong! I was very impressed that he caught on so well and apparently enjoyed my joke. Looking back I am a bit intimidated at why I would not take the class seriously, examine my own deficiency, and put myself at tisk. I repeatedly got away with this anti-social behavior throughout my educational career and I repeate3ldly performed at a level below which I would have achiebved had I applied myself.

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